I got flowers from mom for my birthday and they are still beautiful! No, it has nothing to do with today's post. Enjoy!
I really thought yesterday was the day -- or at least the day I would call the midwife and explain what I was feeling. I started getting quite a few contractions on Saturday (Well, quite a few, I thought -- but what the heck do I know?). I was pretty contraction-y all day Sunday, too. Sunday evening I took a long lavender-filled bath (instead of writing a blog entry, I guess) and what do you know? I felt better. I was almost disappointed when I hit the water and the crampiness left and baby started to move around. I might be crazy, but I think I am a little excited to meet her.
Jamie was quiet all day as I moped about the house, grunting, moaning, breathing and shifting from the exercise ball to the yoga block. After my bath, I announced that I thought we'd be ok for another little white, he breathed a sigh of relief. He said he wanted to get through Sunday and Monday, maybe Tuesday too -- you know, because he has all those meetings at work. Well, baby must have sensed his anxiety and said, "Ok, Daddy -- not today"
I have not slept well in the last few nights. I'm not all that physically uncomfortable, I just seem to have insomnia. I wake up about 4 hours after I go to sleep and I'm wide awake, brain full functioning. I have been trying my relaxation techniques -- the ones I've been learning through my birthing tapes -- but my brain seems to be hyper aware of every little thing. Last night, as I was laying there, wide awake, I thought about how I had not written a blog and so I wrote a blog in my head (a much better blog than this one, to be sure). Let me tell you just how funny and witty it was. But for the life of me -- can I remember all the little things I wrote in my head? I should have had the computer upstairs.
My mind goes to strange places in the middle of the night. I remember thinking about my relaxation tapes (perhaps thinking about how I should use them to get back to sleep). Of course they are not exactly 'tapes'. They are not even CDs. They are copies of files loaded from CDs on to my computer and then on to my iPod. But I still like to think about tapes and refer to my music as tapes. But truth is, tangible media is so far in the past. Our baby girl will not know what a tape is, VHS or cassette -- surely she will be familiar with hockey tape :) But days of blowing on or into something to make it work or , God forbid, waking up to find your dog has chewed through your favorite Madonna tape and now there is a string of warped plastic intertwined in to the fibers of your carpet, are so long gone. My generation will joke about 8 track tapes and vinyl records -- but my guess is that by the time she is bopping her head to the latest boy band, ipods and music files will have morphed in to the next best thing, and probably the next best thing after that. Perhaps you will be able to just start singing a song in your head and it will be downloaded in to whatever device is en vogue at the time. I may sound old here, but it's kind of scary to think about. She will probably read this blog entry, years from now and think, 'mom, you're such a nerd'.
On Sunday, to keep my brain occupied, I tried to fix my sewing machine. I don't really know what is wrong with it, which is the frustrating part. It's a tension thing, I'm sure. I've blown air into all the critical parts and threaded and re-threaded the thread and bobbin a hundred times. It will work like a dream and then, poof, just crap out and get clogged up. Really frustrating. I was able to partially finish two panels of curtains for baby's room. At this rate, she may have new curtains on her 7th birthday. We'll see.
Perhaps I will move on to some no-sew crafts, for now. It's Monday and I have no plans for today, or for any day from here on through baby time. Probably not the best, could spell trouble. I'll do yoga again on Wednesday morning, and another midwife appointment on Wednesday afternoon. Outside of that, it is cleaning, organizing and hurry up and wait.
I am open for craft ideas, if anyone has any. I have embroidery floss and a lot of random fabrics, some paint and a camera. So the possibilities are endless, I'm sure. Wish me luck!
Check back often. We'll keep you posted!